walk with me, lover

•August 8, 2009 • 1 Comment

walk with me through the shifting sands
of centuries, rolling in a constant ebb and flow.
time, itself, irrelevant except to burn the twilight
with the light of day, but in the night…

… in the night, you and i are gods.

strolling through the cavalcade of humanity,
hand in hand with the world around us
a place and time to be recorded in
memories yet being penned, to be penned…

… forever, lover… page after page in our story.

dancing with you, arms wrapped tight around
the one thing i shall ever want or need.
feeling you close to me, breathless moments
with lips brushing against lips, closing eyes…

… to kiss you. rob my breath and take my life.

i beg you. yours, each day, yours to capture
completed are we, two pieces of a puzzle,
sewn together into a tapestry.
yours, unending symphony, enthralled by you…

… immortal lover mine, my soul’s delight.

walk with me through passing scenery
and fill us both with the enchantment
i can only find in you. walk with me and i
shall be by your side, come what may…

… your eternal companion…

… your poet, bound and true…

… a constant star inside the night sky
we possess and claim as our own
through shifting sands and rising tides
now, lover, and forevermore.

where lies the truth

•August 6, 2009 • Leave a Comment

the poet etches words onto a paper
indelible words, with indelible sentiments
spoken in the deepest portions of the
deepest channels within a river running
through the very soul.

what could be said more than the
languages invented by men?
fickle, the sentences, often written
to lay the foundation of houses built on sand.
i watched the tide come in once.
it swept away the firmament.

tell me what conveys truth deeper
than these falllible tools?

would droplets of blood upon a canvas
do the work of a hundred sorcerers
casting a hundred spells to make these
small and simple phrases
lift from the page and bleed into the
cracks and fissures of your heart?

would the whispers of angels
in the ears of gods on thrones above
lace the ink spilled on the parchment
with such magic, the truth could not
be spoken any more sincere?

bound to the earth, i am.

the spells and whispers, the drops of blood,
all of these things yet find their footing
on those castles made of clay
laid down by servants of the master of deceit.

the written word, the double-edged sword,
slices through the marrow, but not often
to mend or bring the peace which
simply knowing often brings.

instead the truth resides within
not the tools… not the pen and ink before me,
but within the soul of he who writes them.
the heart of he whose fingertips
hold the instrument within their grip.

the poet speaks his very life
within the shaky breath and the
weak knees, the tears and soft caresses,
imparted one upon the other.
love, like a river flowing,
soul to soul and heart to heart.

such is the cadence of words
presented with hands outstretched before you.
let eyes meet eyes and hands meet hands
and therein lies the truth.

a silent prayer

•August 1, 2009 • 1 Comment

all i ever wanted,
lover mine,
the feel of your breath
on my skin, the shivers,
the tingles, running up
and down my spine
as though bolts of
electicity, attempting to
restart a stilled heart
with your touch.

all i ever needed,
my eternal maestro,
the feel of your arms
wrapped around me
presence so close,
a whisper passing
between us within the
still of night, so blessed.
kiss me again and
dance with me in dreams.

and i shall find you
in the spaces in-between
and i shall find you
in the moments spaced
like breadcrumbs leading
me back to your heart.
keep me locked there
so i can be free,
keep me immersed there
so i can drown in you.

all i ever longed for
my fallen angel,
the sense of completion
the quiet, the tranquility,
a mind at rest and a
body settled against
mine, i kiss you
once more and pray
to whatever gods listen
to keep us this way forever.

poem: of a life shared with you

•July 22, 2009 • Leave a Comment

i gaze into the portal of self
whenever i am close to you, my lover.
you lead me to the doorway and
invite me into the corridors of truth.

such volumes; so many stories of
the way things were and the way
things could be. i look to the future
and think of chapters yet to come.

so many winding, twisting paths,
how much i wish my young heart
were a trifle older so i could say
i shared those experiences with you.

but there are words yet to be written,
ideas yet to be penned and
symphonies yet to be composed
by the skilled hands which lead me onward.

there are dreams yet to be dreamt
and lives yet to be acted out
on life’s grand stage; shall we
play our parts, oh maestro mine?

speak with me and i shall
speak with you. share your thoughts
with me and i promise to be the
open book you plumb eternally.

so many things await inside a
future yet to be determined.
tell me of your past, my lover
and we shall forge our future together.

dance with me…

•July 15, 2009 • Leave a Comment

stilled breaths settle in the air between us
as silent hearts beat forth a steady cadence,
hanging from the precipice, taking the plunge
falling to the depths, i come alive.

kiss my lips again and tell me
all your sacred secrets.

tell me your thoughts, lover, while i inquire
on the matters of soul to soul,
how two beings can be so tightly woven
into such a work of art as we.

touch my face and tell me
who you are inside.

reveal to me the things which tempt me
ascending to the heights, 
my want, my need, my symphony,
arm in arm, we sing of one accord.

come to me and we shall
dance under the moonlight.

i catch my breath, as though the need to
breathe consumes my very core.
i bite my tongue to taste the blood and
sense you in the crimson flow.

eternal one, my heart soars and my
knees bend in admiration of you.
take my hand and sink with me in passion,
my maestro, lover mine,
my fire and ice forever more.

to celeste… regarding flynn…

•July 11, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Celeste,

I am going to disappoint you with this. I just know it.

As I sit here at my desk, writing out this letter, I do not know what the future will bring. I realize all of the ramifications of telling you what I am about to tell you, but we have come to the crossroads of inevitability and I have to make a decision now. I knew the day would come when the assassin forced my hand and the day has visited itself upon us with all the gloom of a dark harbinger.

Celeste… Celeste… I am going to disappoint you, I just know it.

My hands are shaky as I attempt to type this out to you, because I can see you already, standing there with this cold, impersonal piece of paper your only source of comfort, nothing to shield you against the words they contain. I know how much you love Flynn and how much you mean to him as well, but things have finally come to a head. His behavior the other day, out on the veranda, has proved to me I cannot trust him with the lives of those I hold dear.

You know what happened, because you were there, watching it in horror as the events transpired. After telling Flynn repeatedly to keep his hands off Victor, I brought Flynn to the surface, only for him to turn the tables on me and use this as an excuse for an attack. I can only thank the Fates he did not have a blade on hand and that Victor was able to subdue him. Still, I know his thoughts because I had to listen to them. He wanted Victor’s death. I cannot allow this to happen. I am only sorry because I know this will disappoint you, but do not apologize for protecting somebody I love.

So, this marks the end of the assassin. I am locking him away in the deepest box with the tightest locks and forgetting his name if I have to. He will not be allowed out to the surface. He will not be allowed to exist any longer. Please understand all this, Celeste. Losing Victor would have devastated me, especially if it was by my own hand. Let Flynn find his own body if he wants to come out. He is now restricted from using mine.

I wish I could let you say goodbye, but I am afraid I cannot even risk that much.

My apologies for doing this to you. I love you.
Peter

eternal…

•July 5, 2009 • Leave a Comment

for my vixen

•July 2, 2009 • 1 Comment

hold me while i rest, my love
teach me tender words and lullabies
sung from your lips as, in your arms
i find my refuge in the storm.

cling tight to me, and me to you.
spilling secrets deeper than the
darkest corners of my soul,
i lie myself upon your feet
and beg of you to claim
what you find before you.

i love you; i love you.
darling beloved,
i adore you and i need you.
i want you; i want you.
ever present beside me
in each day which passes,
in each month and year,
be near me and hold me.

teach me tender words and gift me
with the solace of a soul mate
in your presence.
i need you; how i need you.
and shall forever more, my love.

eyes of the seer – chapter nine

•June 30, 2009 • Leave a Comment

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Four Years Later
————————–
“Autumn to winter,
winter into spring,
Spring into summer,
summer into fall,–
So rolls the changing year,
and so we change;
Motion so swift,
we know not that we move.”
- Dinah Maria Mulock

Chapter Nine

Only The Fates knew how much I hated when people kept me waiting.

My fingers turned an unlit cigarette around several times before raising it to my mouth and inserting it between my lips. I dug into my coat for my lighter, flipping the top open and igniting it with one swift motion that might have impressed somebody had they been watching while I did it. The end of the cigarette glowed orange and smoke rose while I thrust my lighter back into my pocket. Blue eyes gazed through the obstruction of sunglasses and cigarette smoke, looking for my target.

I should have never allowed him to live. Each day I permitted him to continue his pitiful existence, I was risking both my neck and my reputation, possibly suggesting that the assassin might be growing soft and merciful while such was not the case. As much as I pondered this paradox myself – if holding my hand indicated a latent weakness rising to the surface – the compulsion which caused me to spare his life dispelled such myths by whispering the reasons why again.

He had ways of locating desired items that left all the seven covens in awe over his scavenging abilities. As such, when Sabrina touched my ear with her cool lips and whispered his name as my next target, I knew I had to use this moment to its fullest before the fires of hell pulled Anthony into damnation. My mistress left for New York and the window of opportunity remained opened for three days. This was the last day, however. The time had come to settle debts with a man living on borrowed time. Continue reading ‘eyes of the seer – chapter nine’

being reunited with victor…

•June 25, 2009 • Leave a Comment

“You are going to fill the airplane with smoke, beloved.”

The sudden voice broke me from my thoughts and directed my attention toward its source. Looking at her caused an instantaneous smile to surface on my face, something she mirrored within seconds when her eyes met mine. Flawless. That is the only way I could describe Celeste. Everything from her raven hair to her alabaster skin and her sensual figure had been shaped by the gods themselves.

Celeste leaned her elbow on the arm of her chair, crossing her legs and hitching the hem of her skirt up her thigh in the process. I admired the view until she cleared her throat in a deliberate manner. “What were you thinking about?” she asked, eyebrow perked and smile indelibly fixed on her face.

I chuckled, shifting in my seat to face her. The plush interior of her airbus came into view once more. I ignored the humming of the jet’s engines as I spoke. “Are you certain you wish to know, beloved?”

“In for a penny, in for a pound.” She nodded. “Go on and tell me. I imagine I know what anyway.”

“Then why do you want me to say it?” I asked.

“I just do.”

We continued looking at each other. I nodded. “We both have missed him, have we not?”

“Yes.” She spoke the word as though it had been resting on her tongue, waiting to spring forth. “I want our house in order again.”

“So do I.” I sighed, glancing away. “So do I.”

A tense silence settled between us, my thoughts wandering to several days ago when Victor stood on our porch steps, glancing back at us while Jacob waited in the car. The limosine idled and time stood still long enough for Celeste to settle in my arms and both of us to take one lingering glance at the man we affectionately called Maestro. From his short, dark hair to his polished shoes, he stood with his posture just as upright as ever. In his eyes, I detected a sadness, though.

Especially when they settled on the woman I held in my arms.

She tensed in response. We both frowned and he mirrored our expression before he turned and closed the distance between him and the car. The door closing echoed in the stillness. Or, so it seemed to in my thoughts, anyway. Celeste and I disappeared inside our Shreveport home, sparing ourselves the sight of the tailights growing distant in the dark.

“He has been doing fine without us,” I said, as much to fill the silence as to reassure myself.

“Oui,” Celeste said. My eyes returned to her in time to catch her wiping at her eyes. “Oh, I know he has. You know how Victor is. He takes everything in stride.”

“Strong and stalwart is our maestro.”

“Indeed.” She sighed.

I sighed as well. “But have we?” I asked after some seconds passed.

“Have we what?”

“Been doing fine without him.” I perked an eyebrow.

Celeste scoffed, standing. “Well, of course we have,” she said. “Don’t you think so?”

“Oh yes, well, of course.” I nodded. “I mean, Flynn had chance to spend some time with you, and I know he has missed you a great deal.” Smirking on impulse, I suppressed a chuckle at the timing of Flynn’s emergence. He did so hate to share Celeste.

Celeste grinned as though reading my thoughts. “Mmm… Diablo.” The shiver that ran over her struck me as an erotic caress, with Celeste’s hands touching her own body in response. “I always enjoy when the assassin emerges.”

My alter ego lifted his head within my psyche. I shoved it back down, reminding him this was my night. “Rest assured the sentiment is mutual, beloved. He purred like a kitten when you said his name.”

She laughed and allowed her hands to drift to her sides. I followed her path to the wet bar on the plane before speaking again. “And I have enjoyed being able to spend some time alone with you as well.”

Her eyes shifted to mine, a soft smile hinting at the corners of her mouth. “Je t’aime, mon coeur.”

“Et toi aussi, ma belle femme.”

Celeste winked. I grinned at being able to say the words once more as they meant more to us than merely being playful bits of French shared from one to the other. Ma femme – my wife – and the last name she had taken to using these days, my own, Dawes; I continued to be held captive by seeing her clad in my family colors. Still, a part of me wondered if the name Madden did not belong to her as well.

The moment his name surfaced again, so did my memories.

So many of them private recollections. So many of them shared experiences. Things Celeste and I could exchange and chuckle about as we remembered the little things encompassing each snapshot. How he earned the nickname ‘zen master’. How he preened with the slightest ego boost. How his eyes glinted each time we devised something decadent to round out our enchanted evenings. Nary a corner of Shreveport did not contain some memory which could be conjured like a witch’s spell.

Things Celeste kept locked inside her heart. Private gardens she would stroll through whenever she paused to think of Victor. Those things I never dared speak aloud, which I kept hidden inside as well. We understood, Celeste and I did, and never forced the other to disclose everything surrounding those private moments. So long as everything remained right between us.

And as I looked at Celeste, I saw nothing but beauty and promise framed in the woman who walked up to me.

Holding two drinks in her hands, she placed both on a table beside me and sat on my lap, curling close to me and nuzzling at my neck while my arms wrapped tight around her. I kissed her head and whispered to her how much I loved her while relishing these final moments before we were to land in Vegas. The window beside me treated us to a panoramic view of Sin City and she and I shared a grin while our minds spun dizzy with prospects. Tours of the city. Hunts late at night surrounded by the lights of casinos and strip clubs. As the plane made its final approach, however, both of us thought of one thing only.

Being reunited with Victor.